tears is coming out again

i feel lost!

patut or tak patut?
keliru or tak keruan?
sakit or makin dalam sakit?

.....................
cant find any suitable words.

i just need him..currently really need him.
ouhhh...i lose it.i lose control again.
i felt that bleeding pain again..
i just want to let this tears burst out again.
why do it still hurt like it just happen yesterday..


cant find anything..its lost in the shadow of myself.
can i find it?
or just let it go again n again