syaz dmm..worrying about him

hello everyone~i'm so happy...totally happy till i forgot that i want to drink.hehe.well i have a little chat with baby syaz.hurm~bout my sacrifice thing..he totally make me just forget about that whacko idea.coz he is totally in love with me..and only me..yeah~i dont knoe why but my tears still not going to stop.not because i'm sad..but worry about my syaz.he's sick.(tulah..kuat keje sgt then main bola time hujan2..mn tak sakit)i just felt like runnning away from my home to his place.i want to take care of him.well,i just plan that tomorrow i'm going out with umu.i'm going to buy air badak and porridge for him.he must lying on the bed all day tomorrow.i want him to get better.i wanna help him.i care about him that's why i'm wiling to do anything.hurm~bout my jealousy it will never going to stop.so i've to deal with it..keep trusting him.that will make me feel better i guess.today,at home ftst..i keep crying.hehe.well,how can i manage to fix myself if i keep hearing to a souless musics..damn,i'm an emotional person.music can take my heart flying with the rythm.naah~that's how i express my feeling..well,that get better when syaz told me something.this is all because i think that he's falling for this gurl at his ms..duh~just forget.i dont want to remember it ever again.it just hurt~what the major probz is..please god i pray for his health.may he recover fast.i dont want him to suffer..oklah that's all.i want to get enough sleep for tomorrow date with my umu and prepare things for syaz.he really need it.even he didn't want me to take a trouble for him.sayang i love,i'm going to take a good care of you.